How is it possible for ONE person to make you go through so many different emotions? Shit is crazy.
I'm just going to go right into it....i don't like emotions. I don't like talking about it (although I do), feeling it, needing it, hearing about it etc. For the past week or so I haven't been myself at all and I hate to admit that it's because of my damn emotions..they are trying to get the best of me but i will NOT allow it. I'm just in one of those " I don't care about anything around me" moods. Maybe that's just my selfish side coming out a little bit and to be honest I could care less.
Lately I've been angry, jealous, irritated, upset, happy about the opposite sex. Yeah...i said it. Guys have too many issues for me to deal with, and I'm sorry i am way too small to carry all that load on my poor back. I hate it when I'm trying to help someone and they shut me out completely, I do understand that people need space and what not but don't make me feel useless while you are at it.
My friend and I have been having awkward moments lately and I know it's not all about me but common buddy I was just trying to help.
Ok so this post was meant to be sent out Yesterday...this goes to show that clearly I have a lot on my mind and I can't seem to get my thoughts together...Just wanted you all to know how I think.
Smooches n Licks!
xoxo
Friday, March 19, 2010
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Spring Break
Hello my Sugar Lumps. How are you all doing?
*sigh* so as you can see the title of this post is 'Spring Break" and yes I am officially (well after my 3 classes in the am) on my break now. Gonna spend it faffing around with a very special friend of mine...should be fun!
Meanwhile it's 1:45am not exactly sure WHY I'm still up seeing as I am sooooooo tired, my eyelids are begging me but something in me isn't exactly ready to call it a night..hmmph! I was just going through Snow (my laptop), going through meaning I was looking at my pictures, notes, personal blogs and......*wait for it*......VIDEOS.
Guys, when I tell you I'm a weird child, best believe I mean it. LOL. There's this 'vlog' that I did ages ago and I just had to come here and share it with you guys seeing as it was MADE for you all anyways. I guess I just didn't have the guts to put it up...*Kanye shrug* well here it is =D. Enjoy and be safe
SnL
PS- *whispering it's 1:55am now and I'm STILL trying to upload this vlog *sigh*
xoxo
*sigh* so as you can see the title of this post is 'Spring Break" and yes I am officially (well after my 3 classes in the am) on my break now. Gonna spend it faffing around with a very special friend of mine...should be fun!
Meanwhile it's 1:45am not exactly sure WHY I'm still up seeing as I am sooooooo tired, my eyelids are begging me but something in me isn't exactly ready to call it a night..hmmph! I was just going through Snow (my laptop), going through meaning I was looking at my pictures, notes, personal blogs and......*wait for it*......VIDEOS.
Guys, when I tell you I'm a weird child, best believe I mean it. LOL. There's this 'vlog' that I did ages ago and I just had to come here and share it with you guys seeing as it was MADE for you all anyways. I guess I just didn't have the guts to put it up...*Kanye shrug* well here it is =D. Enjoy and be safe
SnL
PS- *whispering it's 1:55am now and I'm STILL trying to upload this vlog *sigh*
xoxo
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
I'm Addicted!
Hey beautiful people.
So honestly I am extremely bored in my Sociology class. All my Prof ever talks about it sex this sex that, it's kind of getting annoying in my opinion. I guess that's only because she's OLD and she's a feminist. (her ex husband must have done something terribly wrong that screwed her up).
Anyways I'd like t admit something to you all. I'm addicted to........MY BLACKBERRY and (i know there's more) ...I'm addicted to TWITTER. *covers face* It's so sad. On of my teachers emailed me the other day telling me about how she respects me and I'm a good student and all but i need to start putting my phone in my bag when I'm in her class. She also went on to say how I'm always on my phone doing one thing or the other. I felt bad because I like her, she's cool people's but I mean coooomon Mrs Merlin, it's my BLACKBERRY. i NEED my baby with me 24/7.
Sheesh some people are so clingy. She wants all my attention *flicks hair*....Now twitter is a different thing on it's own. I wake up in the morning and the after checking my Bb i open Snow (my laptop) and go straight to Tweetdeck (go download it if you don't have it, you won't regret it). I check if anyone has mentioned me while I was sleeping and all that good stuff.
***God please forgive me for not Praying first I'm working on my addiction***
So yeah *phew* felt so good to let that out. I feel like a new person. If you have any addictions and i mean ANY.. I'm ALWAYS here for you my darling =)
email me and what not fromthemindsof2419@gmail.com
Love Ya
SnL
xoxo
So honestly I am extremely bored in my Sociology class. All my Prof ever talks about it sex this sex that, it's kind of getting annoying in my opinion. I guess that's only because she's OLD and she's a feminist. (her ex husband must have done something terribly wrong that screwed her up).
Anyways I'd like t admit something to you all. I'm addicted to........MY BLACKBERRY and (i know there's more) ...I'm addicted to TWITTER. *covers face* It's so sad. On of my teachers emailed me the other day telling me about how she respects me and I'm a good student and all but i need to start putting my phone in my bag when I'm in her class. She also went on to say how I'm always on my phone doing one thing or the other. I felt bad because I like her, she's cool people's but I mean coooomon Mrs Merlin, it's my BLACKBERRY. i NEED my baby with me 24/7.
Sheesh some people are so clingy. She wants all my attention *flicks hair*....Now twitter is a different thing on it's own. I wake up in the morning and the after checking my Bb i open Snow (my laptop) and go straight to Tweetdeck (go download it if you don't have it, you won't regret it). I check if anyone has mentioned me while I was sleeping and all that good stuff.
***God please forgive me for not Praying first I'm working on my addiction***
So yeah *phew* felt so good to let that out. I feel like a new person. If you have any addictions and i mean ANY.. I'm ALWAYS here for you my darling =)
email me and what not fromthemindsof2419@gmail.com
Love Ya
SnL
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
That Time of The Year Again!
Hey beautiful people so each year as Feb 10th roles by I cry...only because I miss my brother Derrick. This year I'm not as emotional as I usually am, nor do I feel angry or upset, which is a good thing. I know my brother is in a better place and all that good stuff. He's safe where he is =)
Meanwhile it's also Daddy's Birthday. I love that man so much. The things he does for me and says to me, help me be a better person! Love You Daddy!!!!
Ok soooooooooo my wknd was AH-MAY-ZING....was with T =). We chilled, had fun, went to the movies you know all that good stuff. Dude is pretty awesome....
Don't have much to say! But if you are reading this I LOVE YOU....
and HEY YOU (thats for James- my new readerrrrrr)
SnL
xoxo
Meanwhile it's also Daddy's Birthday. I love that man so much. The things he does for me and says to me, help me be a better person! Love You Daddy!!!!
Ok soooooooooo my wknd was AH-MAY-ZING....was with T =). We chilled, had fun, went to the movies you know all that good stuff. Dude is pretty awesome....
Don't have much to say! But if you are reading this I LOVE YOU....
and HEY YOU (thats for James- my new readerrrrrr)
SnL
xoxo
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Wow...it's Feb 2010 ALREADY???
Hello beautiful people.
I honestly don't think i have a legit excuse as to why i haven't been blogging. It's just SAD =( (forgive me all).
So YES it's already February...i swear time flies when your having fun right? The main reason I'm having fun is because of this new 'love interest' I have. Ok I know how that may sound, I'm NOT in love with him..I'm just really fond of him, I enjoy his company whether over the phone, skype, bbm, even when we are tweeting...(I NEVER mention him though but he knows I'm talking about him). He's just fun in general.
Alrighty enough about him. February is a pretty important month to me for various reasons, jsut to name a few though we have:
a) Daddy's Birthday =)
b) Derrick (that's all i'll say)
c) Valentine's Day *yuck* (I'm just hating really)
d) Black History Month
I mean even with all these events, doesn't mean I'm going to be busy so it's all good! Now i know a lot of folks who are looking forward to Valentine's Day. Lol the thought a lone makes me *cringe* I don't know if it's because I don't have a significant other but the thought of Love + Sayo ....it just seems funny. Best believe I can like someone a lot and yes possibly love him, but I don't think I'll be myself....I'll be too mushy and that's something I really don't like. Th e fact that people change when they are in love..I mean WHY and HOW does that even happen? Yes your 'lover' should be able to make you a better person but when people turn GAY because they are in a relationship i cringe lol...*sigh* the topic of Love and I will never understand each other.
There is this one particular issue I have though. So my 'love interest" (lets call him....T) is pretty cool and all, has his head screwed on tight, knows where he wants to be within the next 5years and how he wants to get there...all this is fabulous to me, I mean who doesn't want someone who knows where they are going right?...Now the ONLY thing I find hard to believe is the fact that he says he's NOT into relationships! Lol when he first told me I thought he'd get over it...ERROR. Dude meant it! Honestly on my part I'm not sure what I want right now, but I do know that I would possibly want something in the future. Future being the next few months or so. Ok as much as I sound like a hater for 'love' and 'mushy-ness' and all that, I'm not ruling it out of my life completely. And I'd so happy if he wouldn't either.
Look maybe I'm being selfish and all. For all I know T could have been hurt in the past several times and maybe he's just scarred or something. *Kanye shrug*. It's all good.....FOR NOW. We'll just see where it goes from here...one step at a time right?
Well I'm off now...I have this NEW addiction. His name is Jack Bauer =) gonna go play with him now for ...the next 3hours or so till my next class!
SnL
xoxo
I honestly don't think i have a legit excuse as to why i haven't been blogging. It's just SAD =( (forgive me all).
So YES it's already February...i swear time flies when your having fun right? The main reason I'm having fun is because of this new 'love interest' I have. Ok I know how that may sound, I'm NOT in love with him..I'm just really fond of him, I enjoy his company whether over the phone, skype, bbm, even when we are tweeting...(I NEVER mention him though but he knows I'm talking about him). He's just fun in general.
Alrighty enough about him. February is a pretty important month to me for various reasons, jsut to name a few though we have:
a) Daddy's Birthday =)
b) Derrick (that's all i'll say)
c) Valentine's Day *yuck* (I'm just hating really)
d) Black History Month
I mean even with all these events, doesn't mean I'm going to be busy so it's all good! Now i know a lot of folks who are looking forward to Valentine's Day. Lol the thought a lone makes me *cringe* I don't know if it's because I don't have a significant other but the thought of Love + Sayo ....it just seems funny. Best believe I can like someone a lot and yes possibly love him, but I don't think I'll be myself....I'll be too mushy and that's something I really don't like. Th e fact that people change when they are in love..I mean WHY and HOW does that even happen? Yes your 'lover' should be able to make you a better person but when people turn GAY because they are in a relationship i cringe lol...*sigh* the topic of Love and I will never understand each other.
There is this one particular issue I have though. So my 'love interest" (lets call him....T) is pretty cool and all, has his head screwed on tight, knows where he wants to be within the next 5years and how he wants to get there...all this is fabulous to me, I mean who doesn't want someone who knows where they are going right?...Now the ONLY thing I find hard to believe is the fact that he says he's NOT into relationships! Lol when he first told me I thought he'd get over it...ERROR. Dude meant it! Honestly on my part I'm not sure what I want right now, but I do know that I would possibly want something in the future. Future being the next few months or so. Ok as much as I sound like a hater for 'love' and 'mushy-ness' and all that, I'm not ruling it out of my life completely. And I'd so happy if he wouldn't either.
Look maybe I'm being selfish and all. For all I know T could have been hurt in the past several times and maybe he's just scarred or something. *Kanye shrug*. It's all good.....FOR NOW. We'll just see where it goes from here...one step at a time right?
Well I'm off now...I have this NEW addiction. His name is Jack Bauer =) gonna go play with him now for ...the next 3hours or so till my next class!
SnL
xoxo
Saturday, January 16, 2010
I'm Back!!!!!!
1st of all Thank u God for a safe trip to and from Nigeria =) 2ndly HAPPY NEW YEAR people! AND my birthday has come...n gone =( but im 21 now so YAY!
2010 has been good so far, i know we are only 16days into the new year but still there's so much to be thankful about. I thank God for my family and the great friends i have and the little things around that i seem to take advantage of lately...with the whole earthquake tragedy that went down in Haiti i'm trying to be in a better mood about life in general. Tomorrow isn't promised so do/say all of what u can TODAY! Don't wait for anybody because they sure aint waiting for you. Ok I'm done with that.
I'm having serious withdrawal symptoms now that I'm back in Ga. All my family members apart from Shane are in Lagos, and now that Bex has moved back it's gonna be worse for me. Only good thing is that i still have Shane here, my peoples in MD and TB. But all jokes apart im so DONE with America. This place is not for me, I'm tired really..of the stress, school, weather, hustle...EVERYTHING!
Remember in one of my older posts when i mentioned how emotional i usually got around Feb and Nov...well this year i think Feb will be a happy month for me =) *insert cheeky smile* NO it has nothing to do with Valentine's Day for all you lovers who think i've found my Mr Right...*yuck* that one lives in another COUNTRY....*go figure suckers* anyhu Nigeria was amazing, i don't think i explain how much fun i had. I was with the fam, friends, made a few new friends i'd say...went to the beach, hung out and ALL that good stuff!
#randomthought: but it's good to have that ONE person who you know you feel safe with...u guys have a mutual understanding so no matter what people on the 'outside world' think its all good between you two! (Love it).
I'm back in school now and im dreading it, i swear school can be so long sometimes but hey without it there's no guap (in my opinion) so it's a must..On a brighter note...the boys (bball team) are doing so good. We've had 8 wins in a row and they've been pretty excited about it so im happy for them all! ..Sheesh it feels so good to be back...blogging that is!!! Will update again tomorrow and show you guys some pics and what not just so you get a little feel of how fab my holiday was *sticking tongue out*
Ok peoples, I don't know WHAT i did today BUT I'm extremely tired and its only 9:50...FML im not getting lazy....or old...am i *cringe*
Love you ALL long time..oh and shout out to #1 aka Puddin it's his Birthday today...Hope you had a great day babe and may God continue to grant you your hearts desires =) Love you x
SnL (new trademark, of course you all know it means Smooches n Licks)
xoxo
2010 has been good so far, i know we are only 16days into the new year but still there's so much to be thankful about. I thank God for my family and the great friends i have and the little things around that i seem to take advantage of lately...with the whole earthquake tragedy that went down in Haiti i'm trying to be in a better mood about life in general. Tomorrow isn't promised so do/say all of what u can TODAY! Don't wait for anybody because they sure aint waiting for you. Ok I'm done with that.
I'm having serious withdrawal symptoms now that I'm back in Ga. All my family members apart from Shane are in Lagos, and now that Bex has moved back it's gonna be worse for me. Only good thing is that i still have Shane here, my peoples in MD and TB. But all jokes apart im so DONE with America. This place is not for me, I'm tired really..of the stress, school, weather, hustle...EVERYTHING!
Remember in one of my older posts when i mentioned how emotional i usually got around Feb and Nov...well this year i think Feb will be a happy month for me =) *insert cheeky smile* NO it has nothing to do with Valentine's Day for all you lovers who think i've found my Mr Right...*yuck* that one lives in another COUNTRY....*go figure suckers* anyhu Nigeria was amazing, i don't think i explain how much fun i had. I was with the fam, friends, made a few new friends i'd say...went to the beach, hung out and ALL that good stuff!
#randomthought: but it's good to have that ONE person who you know you feel safe with...u guys have a mutual understanding so no matter what people on the 'outside world' think its all good between you two! (Love it).
I'm back in school now and im dreading it, i swear school can be so long sometimes but hey without it there's no guap (in my opinion) so it's a must..On a brighter note...the boys (bball team) are doing so good. We've had 8 wins in a row and they've been pretty excited about it so im happy for them all! ..Sheesh it feels so good to be back...blogging that is!!! Will update again tomorrow and show you guys some pics and what not just so you get a little feel of how fab my holiday was *sticking tongue out*
Ok peoples, I don't know WHAT i did today BUT I'm extremely tired and its only 9:50...FML im not getting lazy....or old...am i *cringe*
Love you ALL long time..oh and shout out to #1 aka Puddin it's his Birthday today...Hope you had a great day babe and may God continue to grant you your hearts desires =) Love you x
SnL (new trademark, of course you all know it means Smooches n Licks)
xoxo
Thursday, December 3, 2009
I MEEEEES YOU GUYS!
Hello my darlings,
Ok for those of you who may have noticed, I'm SORRY I haven't posted a new blog in a while. Been uber busy with school and other stuff, I start finals next week so it's not going to get any better =(
BUT how have you all been doing? Good I hope!! Men i just LOVE this time of the year because I get to go to the Motherland (Nigeria) and be with fam =) *pure bliss*.
For those of you who may not be going back to Nigeria, i hope you have a wonderful time wherever you spend your Christmas holiday!
Although I've been busy with school and what not, I've also been a little distracted *wink* but sad thing is, I can't really tell you guys about it yet! I know I mentioned that i had a project I was working on...(wait DID I mention it? If not...here I am...mention-ning it =D ) but yeah it's a work in progress and I will be sure to tell you all about it when I've reached my goal!
So yeah.....um....my BIRTHDAY is fast approaching people and i have NOTHING planned (smh)! It's the big 2-1 and the pressure is ON.....everybody and their Grandma keep asking me what I am doing for it but to be honest I don't know!
Oh well I'll figure it all out when I get to the Motherland.
Will be back soon my loves!
Meanwhile shoutout to my boo @Tkoftnt (follow him people) and go check out TnT's song Gidi Boy Swag www.tntmusiconline.com they are FIRE!!!!!!
Smooches and Licks!
xoxo
Ok for those of you who may have noticed, I'm SORRY I haven't posted a new blog in a while. Been uber busy with school and other stuff, I start finals next week so it's not going to get any better =(
BUT how have you all been doing? Good I hope!! Men i just LOVE this time of the year because I get to go to the Motherland (Nigeria) and be with fam =) *pure bliss*.
For those of you who may not be going back to Nigeria, i hope you have a wonderful time wherever you spend your Christmas holiday!
Although I've been busy with school and what not, I've also been a little distracted *wink* but sad thing is, I can't really tell you guys about it yet! I know I mentioned that i had a project I was working on...(wait DID I mention it? If not...here I am...mention-ning it =D ) but yeah it's a work in progress and I will be sure to tell you all about it when I've reached my goal!
So yeah.....um....my BIRTHDAY is fast approaching people and i have NOTHING planned (smh)! It's the big 2-1 and the pressure is ON.....everybody and their Grandma keep asking me what I am doing for it but to be honest I don't know!
Oh well I'll figure it all out when I get to the Motherland.
Will be back soon my loves!
Meanwhile shoutout to my boo @Tkoftnt (follow him people) and go check out TnT's song Gidi Boy Swag www.tntmusiconline.com they are FIRE!!!!!!
Smooches and Licks!
xoxo
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